I just want a baby!
So now I think I ovulated much earlier this cycle. Possibly due to the maca? - Apparently it can cause early ovulation. That early though? At the most I am 13DPO today (CD25) - At the least, 11DPO. So possibly still too early to test? I feel pregnant though - I have all the symptoms. But do I want it so much that all these symptoms (tender nipples, lower back pain, gas, funny taste in my mouth, high creamy cervix...etc) are just in my head. Can TTC make one go clinically insane? I have always wanted to try shrooms...I guess this could be second best?
Evaps can give you hope though! ...There is something there at least (and I have never even had 'something' there when I have not been pregnant!)...I see it I see it!...Well, its not very pink - but its something! Right?... Why are my evaps not getting darker then? No wait...they are! Wait, can evaps get darker? Am I pregnant - I'm not pregnant. I am so depressed. I will not test tomorrow... Too late - stop me now!!! At least all this peeing on sticks helps pass the time. I keep telling myeslf, its not over until the red lady sings! But its not over yet until I see anything remotely pink...PINK! Ugh